Twentyone on twentyseventeen

Meet aafifah at I-dont-know-how-old-I-am at this time. But more than 20 years has passed.

Being 21, doesn't really change my indecisiveness, my taktahu-all-the-time-at-everything and my skati-kau-la. Tapi terima kasih for those who stayed in my life till now, for all the wishes and doa-s and advices given so that I become a better person.

Im sucks at words. Really. I dont deliver my feeling in words. But more in action (kot). Kalau ada yang sedar la lulz. Basically, I treat people the way I want to be treated. Surprise and sweet things(?) 😂😂😂😂 okbye.

Do even one person thinks that I'm a keeper ? Like I thought they're a keeper. Keep them in my pocket all the time and I dowan to share hahaha. Tamak sangat haa padan muka ipah sekarang takde kawan.

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Their youngest daughter turned 21. How time flies. Rasa mcam baru je semalam, im being so rebellious tanak dengar cakap (peer pressure is real guys), now I really really missed them. Living abroad really changed me huh. Dulu masa dekat shah alam pon takde la rasa rindu and attached macam sekarang. Dekat smap apetah lagi call pon dua minggu sekali (tanya nak datang melawat ke tak, nak datang amik balik pukul berapa)

Bila dah jauh ni baru rasa, eh tak guna nya dulu masa ada dekat rumah tanak tolong mak, tak lekat kat rumah selalu keluar lepak masyaAllah. Now I have a new azam. Balik Malaysia nanti nak spend more time at home (well I should really do this, Terengganu got nothing and no one by the way haha). Jadi anak tunggal di rumah hihu

Well, I feel that I am growing elder(?) (bapak tak shabar nya nak kawin LOL), 

but little do I know, they are also getting older :( 

Tak berapa sedar sampai lah balik Malaysia tahun lepas, 

came back into their arms in their grey hairs T.T 

More obvious for ayoh because previously dia inai rambut dia, so kekal hitam, sampai lah tahun lepas. He stopped inai-ing rambut, and changed his style also. 

Sekarang favourite dia jubah putih and kopiah (plus grey hairs) :)

Soooo, being 21 - not a big deal but not a small too. Rasa la macam dah tua (sikit). Okay boleh pergi daftar mengundi 😂

Dah 21 .... what have i do in this 21 years? Macam tak bape berguna je 21 tahun ni. Dengar kata makayah pon tak sangat. Jadi kakak yg baik pon tak berapa. Adik yg solehah tu mungkin sikit (?) 😂 21 dan ada 5 orang anak buah masyaAllah. Another 2 coming insyaAllah ☺️

Okay bye.

notakaki : Im actually in my exam period (6 papers in 3 weeks). 

Just finished 2. Another 4 in the upcoming weeks. 

And hi Malaysia ! Cant wait ❤️

10 years ago

Sekarang tengah kinda trending orang post a picture from 2010, 2013 and now (2017). 

And I didnt do it yet. Yet ? LOL 

That might be something I'll post later (hopefully haha).

It's just I saw somewhere that someone posted about what she thought about herself 10 years ago, and looking where she is now, how she had come so far and met (or not) her expectation 10 years ago. So I thought I should do it too. Mungkin boleh refer semula 10 tahun akan datang ? Haha.

So yeah, 10 years ago. 2007. I was 11. Wow just realised, I was 11 10 years ago. 

Even my little brother is 13 this year. 

10 years ago I was in SK Taman Melati. My eldest sister just flew to Australia (not). She was kinda of my idol la sebab belajar oversea laa en en. And I was that Standard 5 kid yang rasa growing up is so cool you can do a lot of thing (konon). But whatever, I grew up anyway. 

10 years ago I never can imagine myself where I am today. Like Optometry was never in my list. Never heard of it never knew of it back then. But Allah had really planned it well for me. Atleast that is what I am holding to whenever I feel so down and so homesick (NAK BALIK SO BAD!) 

10 years ago I never thought that I can make it to study abroad. Well harapan dan impian tu memang la ada but I aint a genius guys. Tapi rezeki Allah ada di mana mana kan. 

10 years ago I never thought my circle of friends are who they are today. Well mostly pon tak kenal lagi 10 tahun lepas (that's why :P) We knew when we were 13. And some even later. And I never thought how strong a friendship could be until we are in the situation now. The friends that I knew 10 years ago, mostly (all), I just know them in social media only now. I dont even know if they can still remember me or not HAHA 

Looking back 10 years ago, my past self must have been so proud of who I am today. Despite all the problems and situation that I am facing now, it does take me through a lot of thing to come here (LOTS). I am too proud of my past self (well top 3 most exam sape tak bangga woi !) HAHA. But nayy, I think there are things that I better in the past and lack of those things now. 

Sitting here and writing this now, I just hope my future self, would be proud of myself for what I am now. And how strong I have become and how I handle my problems and what not. 

So here's a picture of me from 10 years ago (cheat a bit this is from 2008) : 

SK Taman Melati 2008

And myself now 2017 :

Ireland January 2017

This picture had never been on anywhere, except that I feel to put it on here now. 

Just because I felt I looked too hipster kahkah 

notakaki : Growing up is not what you expect it to be. 

So expectation now for the next 10 years? 

Down the drain je la lol

Malaysia

Dah patploh hari sampai Malaysia terchenta. 

Ada lagi namploh hari (plus minus) here. 

Raya pon dah nak habis. 

The last two weeks was so hectic penat gila.

Hence, this weekend I'll be at home (I guess, for now). 

Meh la rasa nak share gambar raya pulak :p

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Ni je family picture yang ada 

1 Syawal 

Anaaqi's first birthday !

8 Julai 2016

2 Syawal

The only picture with mak 

Then, raya ! :D

Busyra's

Athirah's

Kuddud's

Azrin's 

Naielah's

Shafiq's

And kak Yana's wedding 

And Melaka trip (tetibe)

And everyone's playing with boomerang en this year. So why not. haha 

p/s : Raya belum habis. I have a Syawal

 trip this year. Really looking forward

 for next week !

June 2016

Hi, 

 How time flies. Its June now!

Almost to the end of my journey here in Cardiff for my first year. Pheww. 

Cant wait to be at home. 

All the tears sweat and tear. Laughs and cries. I hope everything is going to be paid soon. 

The last few days was the hardest day for me (atleast during I'm here in Cardiff).

Having long-distance-relationship (LDR) is not that easy.

Not talking about the boyfriend-girlfriend LDR only here.

It's the LDR you have with your family, and best friends, and favourite foodssss.

It is not easy. 

Kemurungan sepanjang masa untuk the last few days huhu.

When everyone is slowly finishing their exams, and some had arrived in Malaysia already.

We still have another paper left.

(Chaiyok sumorg!)

One of the worst thing happened was, dandan masa aku kemurungan tu, jiran sebelah pulakkk buat party habis exam. MasyaAllah bising dia tu. Really made me cry. Rasa je nak gi ketuk pintu rumah mereka dan berkata "Excuse me, I still have two paper left. Can you please slow down the music?" 

Rasa je la nak gi cakap nya. Haha, Tapi memang lah tak berani lulz.

Maka aku pon hanya duduk di pojok sana dan menangis serta merenung masa depan yang berbalambalam tu :')

Soooo, todayy second last paper. When the second and third year had their last paper :')

Takpe, kami semua tabah haha 

Last paper syndrome hits really hard (started last week padahal).

I did clean my room, and packed my thing already (what?!)

Not going to be back atleast for another one month (?) (okay tipu je, raya I balik kay :'))

Quite confident for today's paper, sampaikan keluar awal. Cehh.

Pastu careless sana sini memang lah ipah. Menyesal terus rasa. 

Tapi takpe lah, ada lah tu Allah nak bagi rezeki kat mana mana lagi kan.

So, to all my friends, lets fight for the last paper.

6 papers done, only 1 left!

Sikit je lagi. 3 hari lagi (lama sebenarnya huhu)

Done mumbling for today. 

Jom sambung kemas bilik, eh I mean study for last paper. Ihiks.

Notakaki : 255 days since I left Malaysia :')